{correct my english} #3 Fish or elephant? Stay wise but happy Years ago when I was a child I begged my family to give a freedom for our fish. My mum glanced to fishbowl and said: "Ah I envy this fish at times. Don't worry, they are not bored by their aquarium". - Why- I asked. - You know, fish has such a bad memory that every day it starts a new life. It probably discover it's bowl day after day and finds it quite engaging - mum explained and went out of the room. I knocked at bowl with stirred feelings. I grew up and became a sentiment person. After a squarrel or making any mistake I used to constantly rewatch it in my mind. I spent so many nights with no sleep, restless and anxious. I was concious of acting unwise, but I was unable to stop thinking. Also I became that person who believes that everything happens to us by some reason. Any good or bad events have to be deserved by human. This belief worsen my insomnia, however it made me be seeking for life lessons I have to learn from any events or people I meet on my way. For instance, I meet agressive people on my way again and again; I start to think of it in this way: 'It could not be mere coinsidences. What do I suppose to learn from that? How to go well with this type of people? Or maybe I have some of their trade in my character?'... But only couple of weeks ago a thought crossed my mind: why do I keep all this bad experiences in my memory, if I got it just to learn my lessons. I actually can let myself forget many of this events once I learned lessons that rised these problems. By other words I can forget this day when I was ashamed when public speaking because I was not prepared for presentation, but remember myself promising that I will never do the same mistake. Remember myself preparing for my next presentation, doing my best. So this principle I wrote down in these words: Forget bad things which follow your life lessons as though you are a fish that have a new life, but learn things that you supposed to learn and never forget them as an elephant. (Elephants have the best long term memory I've heard somewhere). Why it is important to remember the lessons that came with our experiences? I think, if we deny to learn this lessons, we will always meet it in different circumstances, people, times untill we fix this problem. But deleting memories that follow our lessons is essential in many cases. We shouldn't let our life-school's experiences/lessons to deprive our happiness. So you are a master of your life

{correct my english} #2 The only one but definitely the best If you do something (whatever it could be) feeling indifference to this activity - you can suppose you did not do it at all.. It is funny but I got this thought while in turkish sauna. A turkish boy looked bored and had indifferent expression on his face scrabbing me. After I went out of sauna I understood that even if he cleaned my skin really well, I still feel like I need to wash my body. After I went to massage ( it was not too good to be honest). Those massagist was wery passionate about his job and looked happier himself. I clearly saw the difference. The most important thing is not only what you can offer to others but you feel happier yourself. Again, this rule is relevant (applible?) for many life situations. For instance, if you lived your life beying arrogant superficial and didn't use all your potencial, you feel unsatisfied in the end. You need to have one more life! I am sorry to say it is impossible. It is not sauna, you can not go there again. Eventually, I have decided to live expressing feelings and do my best on all levels: physically, psycologically, as a daughter, friend and so on.

{correct my english} Steps to happiness. Lesson one: The only person makes you feel what you feel is you. The only person able to make you happy or unhappy in your whole life is you. Even if for some misterious (or not really) reason someone gives your shit, unless you accept it (let it IN your life) - it still belongs to those who tried make you feel bad (sometimes not beying aware of it). He wanted to ruin your mood/day/life, but eventually he remained by himself, less happy and having more negative energy (karma or whatever you believe). The most interesting thing about that lesson, or better-principle is that it works for many aspects of our lives. Job, reltionships, friendships and the life in general. If you don't want something in your life-not let it in. You can do it.

New spiritual lessons I'd been taught during my last trip I just came back from another trip. That time I travelled to Saint Petersburg, Moscow and Bodrum. Not surprisingly, I had some difficulties and misunderstandings, however when I came back home I suddently understood that I am not those person that left my hometown 3 weeks ago. All these lessons are spiritual, because lately the only thing bothers me is hapiness: what is that and how to find satisfaction not only for that moment but globally. I am sure those principles can work for other people too, or at least it is something to think about...

{correct my english} Looking forward to meet new people and to hear your opinions Even though English is my second language, I have decided to write my blog in english and kill two birds by one stone: start, finally, write down my inward thoughts and improve my writting skills. Another bonus would be to find new friends and fellows.