This is a post of from an internet forum
I'm thirty one years old. In the third years of my relationship with my girlfriend,she got pregnant so we (or got married) married. my son is four years old now and we live in an apartment large enough for the three of us. We have everything we need to live comfortable lives,however these last few years have been the saddest of my life.(?) or We have everything we could ask for, however the last few years have been the saddest of my life.
Everyone tells you that becoming a father is great.They speak a lot about their own children's projects. They dedicate all their efforts into ensuring their children's future so that their children will never want for anything. They always seem to have the attitude of, "they will be happier than I was" or "they have better opportunities ". However, in my son's case, I don't worry about that.In fact I go to my job and do what needs to be done(?) or take care of my duties(?) simply due to social pressure; not because I want to be a good family man.
The kid bores me; I hate his presence in the house;I hate that i have to focus all my energy in his well being and restrict my own desires simply for his well being. (i'm not sure if colons are the way to go about it)
I don't want play with him or take a walk with him. It's annoying when he gets sick and we have to dedicate all of our attention on him and then my wife yells hysterically. I'm tired of all this and I just want them to shut up for a while and leave me alone.
Furthermore, I don't feel anything special for my wife now. She is fucking around all the time,(what does this mean?? fucking around as in sleeping with other people or fucking around as in not doing anything valuable with her time?).We don't even have sex any more. I enjoy it when she goes out with our son.
I really enjoy the few moments when i'm alone in my home. There are moments when i just want to leave everything in the middle of the night and go far away; drink something and walk until sunrise. I just want be able to do what I want to whenI want.
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