Beautiful dinner show

I went and saw a dinner show with my friend. It was called "song-and-dinner". It was performed by beautiful women wearing gorgeous costumes. They were so beautiful and grand. Every move they made, they were full of womanly charm and I was drawn to them.
After the end of that awesome show I made up my mind, thought that I should do something that would make me stronger. I think that if i were stronger it would make it physically possible to move more gracefully. 

My diary 01

My diary AUG. 08, 2014

This is my first note. Right now its 3:30 pm on Thursday. I’m sitting on my desk and pretending to be busy. It is a totally awful day. The reason of this is because my boss asked me to handle our department training, but I didn’t prepare for it enough. I had a lot of other work to do, so I was frantic this morning. I forgot to prepare the training table and print the gift which was for the trainer. The worst thing was that I forgot to let the trainer fill out the feedback form. My boss criticized me in front of the others when she found out I didn’t let the trainer fill out the form. In other words, I feel sick now.

I wish I can express my feelings in English more native, but because of limited vocabulary, i can't express it more vividly. Maybe you can help me and teach me other words? 

Is this correct?

I think it's too difficult for me because I don't have any computer skills or any experience like this. My educational background is A.S.