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I even feel depressed day by day thinking about the past, or what I've undergone when I was in Germany. I got said; I'm Chinese and don't deserve to talk to people. I got ignored. I got racism there.
After I came back to Japan, I just feel sad every day because, you know, I want to be able to speak English but I can never be perfect, and I can't stop making mistakes when I talk. I'm just afraid of making mistakes and I just feel inferior myself when I make mistakes to everyone who speaks much better at younger age than I am.
I'm also an introvert person. That makes me hard to make friends with everybody. In Japan I've never had a feeling like I'm accepted because I used to have no friends.
Why do I dream of a content life where I speak in perfect, fluent English with a lot of friends? It's almost impossible for me in my life that I make many friends in my life and become extrovert or something. Whether I speak English or not, my life does not seem to change at all…
0 votedMay 3, 20140- Why do we still have to learn English?
Why do we, Japanese people still have to learn English, even though it's obvious that we Japanese will never be able to speak it at all?
You know, Japanese and English cannot be the same, and those two langauages have no similarities at all. Which means we can never know the cultural background of each expressions that every English speaker should know. I can't understand why you say what and I still make too many mistakes that can bring you confused all the time. I'm sure the time will never come when I can communicate without any misunderstandings in English, as far as you care for every single mistake I make.
Above all, English is the language that we Japanese never use at all, but why do we have to be able to speak it in this kind of world where discrimination against Asians naturally happens? In some lands which once colonized by Britain and some other English speaking countries, people naturally have to speak English. Nevertheless some people might make mistakes and have some accents and not to mention Japanese people, who do not usually use English as "main" lanugage. Never!
We can never be able to speak another foreign language after you've too grown up. I started to learn English in Japan at the age of 10 or so, but was it too late at all? Or was it in vain if it had not been for learning in the country where people speak English? Is English useless unless I learn it in English speaking country, at really, really early age of my life?
But after all, I'm Asian. Who dare talk to me even though it's obvious I'm NOT from the country where people do not speak English as mother tongue? I know there still exists racism against Asian people. I know the people of other races will not understand us just because we are different, even if our pronunciation and the usage of words and expressions are perfect, more perfect than they speak!
Should I give up learning English? Why do we have to learn English even though it's totally of no use for me? I've lost every reason with that I can be motiveted. I'm not also sure if I'm making sense (but who cares?). I'm sorry in advance for my too much poor English(oh the last sentence sounds too Japanese, I swear. And I'm too ashamed of that I have to be sorry for my poor English…).
May 3, 201491 - Any easy songs for Japanese to sing? Hey, I need some advice; I'm curious about singing in English but I'm not sure if I really can because my pronunciation is still terrible. I'm Japanese and you know, Japanese people might be the worst speaker of English in the world and I'm also kind of bad speaker of English.Thanks in advance :) hinaggikApril 19, 201420
- How can I improve my pronunciation? Hi, I wanna ask some question written above. I'm Japanese, not a native speaker of English, and I know my Japanese accent is too hard to get rid of. Do you know someone who comes from a non-English-speaking country but can speak English as well as native? Why do you think we cannot get rid of our strong accents? It's more than 10 years since I started to learn English but I still speak terrible and I'm even afraid of talking in front of someone else. Why does everyone of native speakers of English require us to speak without any accents? Why can't you understand even I pronounce 99% correctly but have 1% mistake? Is it a problem of our physical difference that every Japanese has, or what? Why are we so weak when talking in English? Any solution for one of those problems? I'm so frustrated because everything I do for leaning English turns out to be nothing after all…March 29, 201440
- What I am scared of(correction needed) Personally, I am not scared of anything for the time being. When something scares me, there must be a solution for that. One might think I must be scared when I'm doing something exhausting or tiresome, but that doesn't mean I feel inferior to something that surpasses my ability. Losing friends might be one of the things I might be "scared", but it depends on the situation whether I can keep contact with friends. For example, someone might want to get apart from me for he/she is moving to somewhere. It's not because he/she does not like me anymore. Losing friends, after all, can be overcome thinking this way. In general, we can overcome every hardship by thinking from different aspects.March 17, 201420
- Warum hasst Du mich? Hallo, zusammen. Ich bin hinaggik aus Japan. Ich war einmal in Deutschland und sprach täglich Deutsch, aber ich habe gefühlt, dass es tatsächlich schwer für mich war. Ich fand, es gab eigentlich ein Rassismus in jenem Land. Ich war dort für einem Jahr, und versuchte, soviel Deutsch zu sprechen, wie ich kann, aber, obwohl ich mit jemandem auf Deutsch reden wollte, wollte aber niemand mit mir sprechen. Ich konnte leider nicht finden warum. Vermutlich ist es so, dass ich so fremd aussehe, dass niemand sprechen will. Ja, ich habe Akzent, ich spreche ganz oft komisch, aber jeder wollte lieber mit Europäer/innen sprechen, die eigentlich mehr Akzente und Fehlern beim Sprechen haben, weil sie viel bequem zu sprechen sind. Und ich, ein Asiate, habe ja wenige Akzente, aber ich weiß noch nicht, ob ich mich dann bequem fühlen würde, wenn ich mit einem in Deutschland auf Deutsch reden dürfte. Obwohl ich schon mehr mal gesagt habe, dass ich aus JAPAN komme, nicht aus CHINA, man dachte, dass ich noch CHINESISCH sprechen kann, und man sagt mich "Ni-hao" Sache.(Und was denkst Du über "Schlitzaugen" Dinge, wenn man einen Asiaten beschreibt?) In München, zum Beispiel, meine Freunden und ich war in einem Bar, aber jede Kellner/in hat uns ignoriert, weil(ich konnte endlich von einem hören) ich so chinesisch aussah, und jeder dort glaubt, dass ein Chinese nie bezahlen will, oder kein Trinkgeld gibt oder so etwas. Was für eine Demokratie hat man in Deutschland? Daher bekam ich jeden Tag ganzen großen Stress, aber hatte keinen zu sagen, dass ich unter dem Rassenhass gegen Asiaten leide. Nachdem ich nach Japan kam, dachte ich immer, wie viel ich in Deutschland schlecht gehandelt worden bin. Ich fühle mich noch schlecht, wenn ich über Deutschland denke, und wenn ich etwas auf Deutsch höre, aber jetzt fühle ich mich besser als in der Vergangenheit. Willst du nicht, dass ein Japaner in einem Deutsch-sprächige Land kommt? Ist das hässlich, dass es auf der Welt ein Asiate gibt? Ist das für euch egal das Unterschied zwischen Japaner, Chinesen, Koreaner, und so weiter?(hast Du noch andere Beispiele?) hinaggikFebruary 18, 201420
- To get more precise… Hi all, lovely racists, I've finally got to the point. I assure I always get discriminated wherever I go, just because I'm totally foreign at all and cannot talk and communicate in any language orally. Who cares for me unless I can communicate right away instead of writing or typing? And who in the hell will have a talk with me when you find nothing in common between you and me? In Germany, the land where racism has always occurred to me, I always get ignored whenever/wherever/whoever I tried to talk, even when I tried to talk both in German and English. There are naturally no one who know about Japan and no to tell where I come from only by judging from my appearance. Even I, a guy born in a country most apart from European region, know they speak in Switzerland French, German, Italy, and Romansch(I don't care how they spell but you know I don't deserve to spell it correctly, right?), but I assure none of people I've ever met could tell where I come from at the first glance unless given beforehand. Instead, they even yelled at me or treated me as an Asian, which was in fact as if they were toying me as a pet! After I came to my homeland, I get more and more frustrated for being treated that way, day by day more and more depressed, without finding out where and who to tell everything about those racists' things. You still don't know each Japanese is so happy with their culture and society which they insist they established after the second world war, and they believe they deserve such life with amount of fluency, but in fact I dead hate that because I've ever met people with no responsibility at all; they just say whatever they want, without an accurate and proper cause at all. At my university, for instance, those f**kin' students are offsprings of those silly bureaucrats, who will never want any 'radical' change in political system, having pretty amount of money enough to raise their children to let them get much better education, whereas there are a lot of 'middle-class' families who cannot even get enough. At the university, when we have a discussion, it never gets to the point because those children of the men of 'superiority' will never of course ignore what is happening in the real world. They will just insists what they deserve, saying unfamiliar words which I do not use in daily life at all. They are totally nothing but snobbery. I assure none of Japanese will listen to me because they believe Germany is by far the best country, but I don't.January 30, 201400
