(40) I truly want to develop my English skills and I'd love to have your help!

1)
I had not understood (i did not understand) why studying brought people joy until finishing the high (until i finished high school) school. No one pushed me to study and taught me how to study and why I should study. (no one forced me to study or teach me or even gave me an explanation on why i should study but i just did). I could never forget the moment when I got a (scored) 178 out of 550 on my first mock exam when I was a (during my high school senior year) high school senior. I was not shocked. Nobody expected me to be a good student. Friends even laughed at me for my score and I had no choice but to stand still. Yes, I hated myself at that time. I didn't hang out with bullies nor neglected my study. However, I didn’t realize my effort was far from enough. I just thought my brain was dumb. (i wasn't as clever as others)--> its a better way to put it than to say youre dumb:)

2)
I had not understood why some people find studying interesting and fun until I graduated from high school. No one told me why and how I should study or ever encouraged me before. I have never forgot (forgotten) the moment when I took scored 178 points out of total 550 from the first mock test as a high school senior. I was not shocked, though. That was whom I was, then. Some friends even ridiculed me on my score and I had no choice but to suck it up. Right... at that time, I hated myself so much. I didn't hang out with the wrong crowd or neglect my school work. I thought I did my best. However not realizing my best wan't good enough, I just blamed my brain.

Please help me.
Thanks!

the second one is better written than that of the first! its just that there are some grammatical and tenses rules that you have to bear in mind with. im not a native english speaker but i just gave some suggestions anyway:)

hello:)
im from hong kong native canto speaker hahaha but am currently in uk for studying
i know you have jeff as your teacher now but maybe we can be frds as well? hehheeh
goodluck on learning canto!:)

loves x 

LOL HELLOOO!
Im from hong kong as well but am currently studying in the UK ahhaha. 

PINKKK! ahahha probably because i love how vibrant and vivid the color is?