Tonight's luck ))) Ha-ha) Actually, I don't know how I should entitle this entry. I don't want to seem a very pessimistic person with a great burden of problems to weep about. No! But when I experience a failure it makes me think of the reasons of it, about my behaviour and misbehaviour, my strong and weak points. I can't think silently to myself because my thoughts start circling round & round. Basically I'm used to blame myself for every fail. And so the round of thinking turns into a round of accusation or even further into a slough of thougts how life is beautiful and how I'm ugly and such a fool for this world. But it's not a good way for improving anybody's life, is it?) But when I speak I have an opportunity to sluice my energy off and become more realistic and positive. And what about the aim of my entries here? I don't hope that my writings have any feature of artictic value, but for me it's practically the only chance to try writing about everything what worries me in English. Frankly, I have a little hope that anybody will correct my mistakes. It's just a sort of training my language skills. Today found that I'm not fluent in English again. It was not a surprise for me at all. But I was ashamed. What were the reasons for that uncomfortable feeling? The fact is that I got a job as an English tutor in the center of additional education where I had tried to. But I realize now how poor my active vocabulary is. I make a lot of mistakes in speaking and spelling. And I haven't got enough words and collocations for expressing my ideas correctly and precisely. I don't know what will happen when I start working with children but I've decided to keep my end up! I was afraid to teach English after graduating from the university when I knew it much better. And what a result I've got? My knowledge has grown much worse. So I have no way to improve my language skills but teaching somebody. While we teach anybody we are learning. I'm sorry for that mess in the entry. Here I write to everybody and nowhere exactly. But any reader is an adressee for me. It's like an old game 'A letter to imagined friend'. I write, you read or don't read, but nevertheless I use English, I work with it and I'll acquire it soon. I promise that my next note will be more interesting because I'm going to stop writing about my failures and start with my joys. Now I read stories and novels in English and I hope to work with them as we did at the university. It's much more helpful and interesting work. Thank you!