After you lose someone special

Usually I rarely watch TV, but last week I watched a Japanese drama. It's been a while and the drama was called "Tombi." From the first episode, I couldn't help crying.

Since I've (you can use just "I" if this is a recent event or if you lost all of them at once) lost my friends and family members, when I watch scenes in which people pass away or someone who is suffering from the death of a loved one (or 'their loved ones'), it always gives me grief and makes me cry. Because I do understand what it is like deeply, their grief, pain and loneliness after people losing someone special. (It is more natural to link the previous 2 sentences: "makes me cry, because I")

The father of one of the main characters lost his wife due to an accident. He threw away all her belongings because it was so heartrending. When you lose someone you loved, it's not easy to fill your inner emptiness. It also takes some time to heal your feelings.

When my father passed away, my mother started to throw away his personal belongings right away. At that time, I wondered how she could do that so soon. There were so many memories in his things. However I realized that my mother was going through a rough time at that moment and it was so hard to deal with the situation. After watching the drama, I realized/understood (you can say "noticed" if she was watching it with you) her feelings and I couldn't stop crying. I realized...that's why she did that....

Now I came to understand her feelings which I couldn't know at that moment .

Sorry, mom.

Everyone lives holding various feelings. Sometimes you get lost and don't know how to deal with grief or disconsolate feelings but those feelings are changing definitely as time goes by.

Time is a healer. (We have a similar saying: "Time heals all wounds.")