Instability, fear, and hesitance I just have two more weeks until I finish my adventure. I've been doing this for almost a year and gone through a lot of frustration, emptiness, and loneliness. I didn't realize that I should have tried to do things and be engaged more until it's time to leave out of this adventure. Sadly it's too late to start everything again. After this, I have to go back to my ordinary life. It might be boring, not fun, and also hard but stable, convenient. I know that I didn't or couldn't try to be more engaged because my adventurous life has been unstable and full of frustration. So I think that's the reason why I didn't try doing things more. But on second thought, that's what an adventure like, isn't it? How can we call it an adventure if it's stable and has no frustration.. I know this is my first time of doing this kind of adventure. But I could have realized this earlier if I kept reflecting myself. I just gave up on trying and was at the comfort zone, which is so regretful. I'm not sure if I could have a good opportunity like this in my life again later. This was a kind of my diary. I didn't write it down specifically what the adventure is and what happened. Please understand :) Correct me if there are mistakes :)

Regrets How can we make ourselves not regretful? I'm a person who always regrets after it's over. I don't know, everyone might be like this. For example, when I was in the situation where there are a lot of opportunities I always regret that I should have engaged in there more. I know that there might be a reason why I didn't participate in that much. But after times went by, I used to realize that that reason was not so important and I could have done something more. What attitude or mindset should we have not to regret about things? What should we do if we want to get the chance while we're not realizing they're the opportunities? Meditation, reflection, or some time of being alone away from every other connections like phone, computer, other people? I just wrote down what I think about these days. I'll be so thankful if anyone correct this. Thank you :)

Job problems These days I reckon unemployment is a global phenomenon. The population of our world has been increasing so far, and it means the group of consumers has increased. But the group of suppliers hasn't increased as many as that of consumers since the machines has replaced our jobs. So the imbalance has started, this kind of global unemployment got started. It's generally serious in developed countries. Many companies move their factories to some countries which have low wages. So the people in developed countries are still the consumers, have to buy things and spend money but there are not many jobs. Ah Jesus I need to stop now cause I need to leave the library. Please correct me. Thank you.

The dark side of maximizing profits in capitalism. Ah, before writing, it's quite a difficult topic to write about. But there's not much to write about. This is an informal writing so all things I'll write about are just my personal opinion. Moral Hazard or inhumanity. There are two ways to compete in capitalism. First "Differentiation" second "Low cost". Differentiation could be made by R&D. So they make things different from other products. Low cost could also be made by R&D, like, with a improved process. But "Low cost" is also accomplished by using cheap materials or making something "too" efficient. For example, construction company could use low cost strategy by using cheap and bad materials. Or we can just think about how we raise chickens and cows. We raise chicken in a cage which they barely can move. Chickens are killed in 6 weeks because it gives the best profits. Within 6 weeks chickens grow completely so big enough to eat. If you raise them longer than that, it'll cost money. So we just kill them. Capitalism is a good motivation for people to work hard, but if we're blind for the money and only follow it, it'll destroy us someday. - just too long about chicken :)

movie boyhood Filmed by Richard Linklater, the movie is about the boyhood of a boy named 'Mason". The film was taken for 12 years so director describes the boyhood step by step as the character gets old. The most impressive scene to me was that mum(Patricia Arquette) says that 'I just thought there would be more' when the son leaves her. I'm not a parent, don't have a child, but I don't know I think I could understand what it means. I've lived hard until now as giving up a lot of things to get some accomplishments. But the thing I always felt after got it was that 'I thought there would be more'. I tried to get some things and do my best but after I got it the only thing left was a thoughts like that. Yeah, I reckon life is like that. We just do things we have to do in each step of life, put effort into it, have done it, and start another one... not just a big one but the connection of big and small things. I'm sleepy, I think I have to stop and write this later again :)

review for movie 'boyhood' Before writing, please correct 'review' above into the correct word if you can :). I looked for 'review' in the dictionary and it seems like it's only used for something formal. This is just a short, informal writing about a movie to practice English. I don't know the proper word for that(review). Filmed by Richard Linklater, the movie is about the boyhood of a boy named 'Mason". The film was taken for 12 years so director describes the boyhood step by step as the character gets old. The most impressive scene to me was that mum(Patricia Arquette) says that 'I just thought there would be more' when the son leaves her. I'm not a parent, don't have a child, but I don't know I think I could understand what it means. I've lived hard until now as giving up a lot of things to get some accomplishments. But the thing I always felt after got it was that 'I thought there would be more'. I tried to get some things and do my best but after I got it the only thing left was a thoughts like that. Yeah, I reckon life is like that. We just do things we have to do in each step of life, put effort into it, have done it, and start another one... not just a big one but the connection of big and small things. I'm sleepy, I think I have to stop and write this later again :)

Emigration into another conutry I'm currently staying in Australia. I like this country and if possible I want to live here forever. But as you know, living in a different country is a quite challenging. You have to start and learn everything again. For example, although this is very basic thing, you have to know how the traffic signs work and about the rules of traffics here. If you want to emigrant there, it's another level of problem. You have to get a job and keep your living. However, as a emigrant, if your English is not that good it's really hard to get a good job opportunity. Jobs that you could only apply for are something manual and physical which doesn't need English that much. It doesn't mean these jobs are bad or low worthy. I mean, there would be possibilities for you to not have a choice. That is the big hassle for me to think about emigration over and over. I like the culture, atmosphere, and nature here so I want to stay here longer or forever but practically it would be impossible.

Why is the continuous form of vomit "vomiting", not "vomitting"? Why is the continuous form of vomit "vomiting", not "vomitting"? We usually put one more consonant when the word ends with one short vowel and consonant. For example, stop - stopping, run - running, swim - swimming, get - getting, sit - sitting. Could anyone explain about this?

I don't like to drink alcohol. Yesterday, I drank alcohol with my co-workers. I went to one of the co-workers' house and we had barbecue party. I drank some beer and tequila. I went there because I thought I needed to be closer with co-workers. I only worked at current job for one month, so when my supervisor asked me if I take part in barbecue party or not I said that I would although I still don't like to drink alcohol. Anyway I had a good time at barbecue party, but the problem was after that. I went to dart-bar after barbecue party with some of the party participants and we played it subject to loser drinking two tequila shot. I lost the game and I had to drink two tequila shot straight. It was okay just right after that, but after I arrived at home I was dizzy and nauseous. I went to bed, but I couldn't sleep because I was really nauseous. I felt like vomiting but didn't. After 2 hours I got kinds of comfort and could sleep. So I thought by myself "why do people drink this? why do people like to drink alcohol? I can't understand because they're not delicious and good for health."