Is beauty everything? Yesterday I met one of my cousins. She is nineteen, so the kind of age when your hormones speak for yourselves. I asked her about her first boyfriend and, like a big sister (and I bit stalker), I said "come on, tell me his name, I want to see if he is cute or not". And she replied "ok, take a look, but you will see also his ex girlfriend, she is very hot!". This sentence made me so sad, because I didn't like hear the weakness of my cousin. She has always been independent and I don't want her judgment can be influenced by this guy, but if you think, most of the time, even if we are strong, we need to compare ourselves to other people and other people's judgment are very important to us. This made me think about one thing. In every (American) movies they show you how not be so cute it doesn't mean anything if you are funny (so the hottest quarterback of your school can love you forever and ever and you can go to the prom with the beautiful dress that your mother has just fixed for you). Well, it happens just in these kind of movies, not in real life. When I was a teenager, a lot of guys told me I was a monster (is it a kind of bullying?), and I started to compare myself to other girls, especially with my friends. They have always been cute and I have always been realistic about my body and face, so I knew I wasn't cute as much as they were. Anyway, I decided that if I couldn't be nice, because Mother Nature was not kind to me, I could be funny (well, maybe it's just in my mind and nobody thinks I am funny; is it a kind of bullying?). That's why I decided, subconsciously, that I didn't need fancy dress or use make up, because people need to see you in the way you are, you can't hide your nature forever, can you? I mean, you can use a lot of make up and be like an actress, but when you go to bed your make up say goodbye to your face (and maybe the guy you met that night) and show who you are. I remember once I use make up, this guy told me "you are so pretty! it doesn't seem you!" I am sure he didn't want to be mean, but it was not compliment, because it means that I can be pretty just if I use make up. I started hiding behind books (and sarcasm). I think you can use make up, of course, but you need to accept yourselves too. Hopefully beauty is subjective and it's not everything. The hardest part is finding someone who likes you the way you are and it is not always easy (but I am sure my cousin is better than that girl).