Dreaming - Part 2

I had said before, that I have felt comfort just in my dream world . I can't and could not find it in my life.  Therefore, I will have to find it in my never-never land.1 dream world. In fact, it can't say use the word, "find". The cComfort comes from within dream by itself. However, Sometimes I can't cannot get any comfort from there. in my dream world. Because I too can have a few nightmares. When I wake up, my two eyes I stared vacantly fixatedly on the white wall. It's difficult for me to decide that whether is it was a dream or true real life;  and is it whether I was alive or I had died? I only can feel that the vigorous thhumping of my heart beat vigorously, but when my heart beat claim When it is calming down slowlylittle by little, the dreamscape has is gone with the wind like mist and cloudslike the morning mist2. A true myself was Only the real me remained.

1.  You had already used "dream world" earlier.  It is better to just another word instead of reptition unless it is for rheteoric emphasis.  The "never never land" is the dreamland in the story of Peter Pan.

2.  It is okay to use 烟飛雲散 in Chinese essays but it is better to use "morning mist" in English.  You can also use, "... the dreamscaped had dissappeared like the morning mist."