Diary on 2017.2.19 It has been a long weekend for me cause so many thingkings are always around me. I made pizza by myself today ,it tasted ok but looked horrible,cause it's my first time to making pizza,and I guess I didn't use the right cheese. After checking website, I found mozzarella or Cheddar is the right choice.Maybe I need to look for them in bigger supermarket. when I was in the bus to the supermarket yesterday evening ,I started to think of many things happened before .Actually ,I had a qurrel with a ten-year friend of mine on Thursday,then he delated my wechat ,I thought he was on impulse, cause another female friend told me that he talked to her on Thursday evening around 10:00pm when we just finished qurrel and didn't talk to each other anymore. But when I contacted him the next day,he said he didn't know whether we are friends or not and he was not on impulse to delate me.Even if I have apologized a lot At this moment,maybe someone is interested in the content of the qurrel. We were talking about the job nowadays, he insisted that good jobs are available easily for one who has abilities and skills .I don't think so and I said what he thought is because that he has stayed in the national company for so many years ,I can't remember clearly what I said ,but I must say something that hurt his proud,though I never mean that. For me ,it's not our first time qurrel, and we usually start to talk as usual the next day. I thought this time would be as usual,but I was wrong. I didn't call him, I called the female friend on Friday afternoon and couldn't control my tears.Maybe sometimes we just need a path to release the bad mood, but it shouldn't be friend especially who is kind to you for so many years. I memorised many things before, when I worked in Beijing,he worked in my hometown and sometimes went for business trip in Beijing ,always invited me to dinner. When I moved to Shenzhen in 2015,his company started a branch in Hongkong,then we spent sometime together last year. He always told me some rules of how to get well with colleagues and leaders in the family company. And that's not his responsibilities. I think I have made a mistake which my roommate told me many years ago ,it's that I sometimes put my living rules and needs of life on other people,that's not fair cause everyone has their living proposals. The most important thing is that I shouldn't evaluate other's life and oppcupation even if he is my good friend and spoiled me sometimes.