How do I feel?

I feel that I have improved my Eenglish a little but I need to study more the forms of grammar more and form to understand how to organicse sentences and then I willfeel more confident myself when I speak to people. I remember the first time that a native Eenglish speaker told talked to me, I forgot all.... everything and I didn' not speak, my heart beat much very quickly and my hands put felt far colder,. Really, I was really scared. Nowday and for fortune Fortunately, I don't not feel this terrible a fear nowadays.

Your use of contractions (e.g. didn't) would be correct in spoken English, but not in formal writing where we spell out the full words. The names of languages always start with a capital letter.