My bad day - I failed today!

I'm 21 years old, be am about to graduate college, and I am in at a stage in my life in which isn't obvious in my dream, my passion, my future job, and love life aren't clear and I have some problems of in my life.
Today, I received a Toeic certificate with the bad point out of a lower score than I expected, and it's lower than my 2 friends' scores one. Due to my laziness and not to knowing how to manage my time, I failed!!!! I hate myself extremely now! ["I am extremely unhappy with myself now!"]
Today, I see that my close friend is doing much better than me very much, from her many relationships ["from her many connections"?] to her job opportunities. Both I and her she and I have started at the same time departure, are the same grade level, the same ages, have the same passion and skill, but she is faster than me, and has have more facility (or "ability") than me and knows how to keep find opportunities. So, up to now, she's has winning (for she's beating me, at this point time). I always feel that she's lucky, and Neither do that I am not. But I must re-think about the reason why I failed and why I should never stop trying. In my country, there are a sentence that some sayings: "you fail when you stop trying" and "Failure is the mother of success" (my English's not good). So, I believe that I can catch up with her and do better than her in the future. I am will not let myself give up stop trying!
Today is my bad day :(
I am unhappy...

[Don't give up!]

My bad day - I fail today!

21 years old, be about to graduate college, I am in a stage which isn't obvious in my dream, my passion, my future job, love and some problems of my life.
Today, I received a Toeic certificate with the bad score out of expecting and it's lower than my friends one. Due to my laziness and not knowing to manage time, I failed!!!! I hate myself extremely now!
Today, I see my close friend better than me very much, from many relationship to job opportunity. Both I and she have the same departure, the same level, the same age, the same passion and skill, but she is faster than me, have more facilities than me and know how to keep opportunity. So, up to now, she has win (for me, at this time). I always feel that she's lucky, and Neither do I. But I must re-think, the reason why I fail and never stop trying. In my country, there are a sentence that "you fail when you stop trying" and "Failure is mother of success" (my English's not good). So, I beleive that I can catch her and better than her in the future, I am not let myself stop trying!
Today is my bad day :(
I am unhappy...