easy's notebook entry: Jan 18, 2011 I lose myself？ . I had intended to study English and exercise for today .Finally,I only do some exercise in the evening. I spent all the day in front of the computer. I told myself again and again but I am too lazy.Sometimes I hate myself so much,why can't I study as hard as I was in school. laziness defeat diligence so easy.Winter vacation let me feel a little bittersweet.I want to enjoy my vacation and I also want to learn more knowledge. How can I get a balance？