The idea of these days..

In the (Could also use, "Over the")Last few days, I have suffered for the a dilemma on how I will manage for my life, and having what kind of job I will have.

I have some a wish list of my future jobs (Could also use, "I have some wishes for future jobs"). But, as the life itself is, Neither of them , cannot satisfy my expectations completely.

I hope (Could also use, "I want/Wish")to be a commecialist.(This is another topic so that< Should end with a period) but This would make a problem to choose in choosing my life partner, in the case of she doesn't like to live living abroad. It doesn't sound bad to be a producer in the broadcasting company, however I would not have regular life pattern as it need to work at random hour it would require working random hours.(If you don't understand(Could also use, "know") what I am referring to, I will put it this way, in korea at least, the producers in the broadcasting industry work for undecided hours) 

I will continue as soon as any correction or feedback come.

Some tips for the future:

I's that stand alone in sentances are ALWAYS  capitalized.

The words in blue are not wrong but, I figured it would be useful to know of different phrases you can use instead.