I tasted a salty tear on my face a few days ago.

what situation makes you be emotional like when you lost your cute kitty or you got anger at over a misunderstanding to another person? I hadnt been had an experience with it for so such a lomg long time. maybe it it's because i didnt live with caution in my life and pay attension attention to another person seriously. So I pass walk the path in an absent-minded way like a 'usual typical Japanese underguraduate student'. But my life have has changed in a large way since I dated some lady. Im gonna skip talking about how we fell in love each other this time. She visited me 3 months ago and left me a few days ago. when i said goodbye to her at the air port, actually i didint wanna let her go back but it had to be..... so we kissed and she pass passed the gate. I was trying to look at her, and I waved to her while she was passing the gate and untill until i couldnt see her. After she left me, i felt very loneliness lonely and empty because I got had a banch bunch of good memory memories and sharing shared my life with her. This is the moment that Until that moment i had been never felt that feeling. Now im trying to think of my next step which I have to dicide. so Im thinking which steps should i choose: going to community college in the USA, or finding a job here.
p.s. im going to talk about traveling with her in 3 months another time.