New chance

A new chance is coming to me again. I feel so happy and also nervous. The last times, the chance came to me, but I can't get/grasp all of it. I let many chances fade away. At that time I feel disappointed about myself. My family and my friends had encourged me so much, they talked to me that you never give up, you have to continue. And in this chance, I told myself that I have to do my best. I afraid to face with my family with my friend if the bad thing happen. I don't want to think about it anymore. I'm very anxious.

and, also = two different words. Same meaning.