a little upset

I have to admit that I am a little depressed when I am writing this essay. I have prepared for almost 1 year to 2 for a test that is required to apply for my further studiesy. I have a test in 2 days. However, before I take the train to another province to take the examination, I start to think. Maybe I am just silly. My many friends Many of my friends had gone to America this year and they were already studied there. But I am still sad about my TOEFL. Even though my friends told me I should be confident, I think the it is more important is I must know about to know myself. That is to say, I can not say that I can do it while my basic knowledge or capability is not qualified enough for me to take the test.

Sometimes I think I should go to see a psychologist. I am afraid of failure. Since I failed in my college entrance examination, I have worried about my failure. I clearly know that if I can not overcome this barrier I will never study in on an American campus.

Now I have to prepare for my oral English part of my exam. Whatever happensed, I should do my utmost to fight for my dream.