My feeling

Hi, my name is Felipe and I am the white swan. Today I am just going to talk about my feelings, because some days I just what to understand how I feel. Recently, I been feeling pain...in my heart I feel sad, I feel pain, I feel all these emotions in me. Sometimes I don't want to wake up. I don't want to open my eyes, I just want to sleep and never wake up. In my dreams, I am happy, with the pretty girl. We are under the water, swimming, kissing and hugging each other.  Underneath the waves of emotion I feel safe... protected. I feel I am not alone anymore. When I open my eyes and wake up from my dreams I feel the pain in my heart. I feel so much pain everywhere in my body, in my soul - I feel all the pain of being alone. Sometimes I feel so weak. I don't want to live anymore I just want to curl up into a ball and disappear forever. This is how I feel.

[Your feelings are so strong that I feel reluctant just to correct the English, but that is what you requested.  You choose your words very well and they express well how you feel.  Just remember to make the sentences shorter and do not run on for so long.]