minnie1988's notebook entry: Oct 11, 2010 My best friend asked me why did i not pass the tem4. A great surprise occured to me at that time . I always believed that i am a hardworking girl , i could reach my goals after practices . However , the truth is that i failed this time and i had no choice to take this exam forever . I felt so sad that i could not give a response to my friend. Though i pretended to much brave to give a smile to her, my heart was broken at the same time . I could accept the real ferocious reality , however , i could not get the barrier in my mind away easily. I thought i was so weak , sensitive and unconfidence. I tried to overcome them , otherwise , the finally effects were not as good as i expected .I don't know why i become such a person who is lack of optimist and hope . I really want find myself ~~What can i do ? How can i do ?