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Every night ,I feel a little sad without reasons. Now it is 22:17 in my time zone and normally I should go to bed and conserve strength for tomorrow. But I just can not fall asleep as I always think too much about myself even after I have had a tiring work day. Tonight, my female boss came and arranged another task for me. "ANOTHER" , see this word, you can imagine how hard I work for her company. But in fact I was very tired at that moment. It is not the evening task that bothers me, I think it is because of you. I just miss you at this moment on this very night. You said you might come back on 2nd May  but I never expected you would keep your promise. I am looking forward to seeing you but at the same time I am afraid. On 5th May, I am supposed to take a train to back home and university for a few days in Hubei. Maybe we will miss each other again. Sometimes I hate myself, why I am so sensitive and negative? Why can I not be relaxed towards life and work? Why must I always be serious-minded towards everything? I do not know!!! Maybe you can tell me……