Hugs. Maybe it's time to stop thinking of being able to control your feelings, to be able to decide if it's the moment of parting or to emotional hugs. Love each other, that's that. Although you are so far away. Always say to him what you're thinking, because it's since your speeches it could sketch out everything. `Maybe if you are so cold you could impair the relation's sincerity don't follow it the right natural track. The reason for writing to someone could be simply telling them something. It's lovely that someone wants to tell you something.