Making Peace with Chaos

Whenever I sit alone in my room at the end of the day's work, away from the hustle and bustle of the world, I usually find myself contemplating upon the unwarranted things that I did to others, as well as the unwarranted things done to me. As a human being, I know that it is almost impossible to remain uninfluenced by the mental vices that exist in the deep psyche and the unconscious mind. All too often, I find myself perplexed by the thought of how an individual can be so irrational and unpredictable when surrounded by people, yet, the very same person is so rational and orderly when isolated and away from all the chaos.

As a result, either I am the one who is indignant and full of contempt when beleaguered by people, or I am the one who is apologetic and full of regret for all the hateful things done to others. Though I can be hostile to the people who push me to my wit's end, I am definitely not the type of person who hates everyone for no apparent reason. Like almost everyone else, I can only experience my real self when I am away from others and free from external distractions, when I can remove the mask that I wear as a shield to survive in this world full of antipathy.

At the end of the day, after renewing my spirit and cleansing my soul, I make peace both with myself, and the whole world. I recognize that we are intertwined, each of us inseparable parts of the omnipresent, and omnipotent whole. And tomorrow, we both will begin anew…

Hi, Renuka. Good job! The changes that I made were to allow your sentences to sound more natural to my native ears, to clarify your ideas, and for ease of reading. Sincerest apologies if I have misinterpreted. I hope that this helps you. J.