pieces of thoughts Been through a lot this few months, and had no time to update my italki diary. well i'm happy to say that i've earned enough credit to keep me away from being expelled from my college, which guaranteed my opportunity to start over again from freshmen year(or sophomore, if i wished). i've decided last semester, to restart majoring in french. but this talk with my dad today changed my idea. here's the point: though i have not yet decided what im gonna do after graduation, i would very much likely to apply for a bachelor degree in some other fields at some other universities.dont know yet whether it would be management or mass media（pretty sure nothing to do with science or engineering any more.but so long as i am to participate the national postgraduate entrance exams, i would have taken english exams, which is no easy. not only my dad, but some of my friends told me that i should try to be outstanding instead of just being good or even worse, okay. good as i am right now in english, i could've become outstanding if i choose to major in english(of course i need to work hard enough), which would benefit me a lot in the future, i mean, in daily life and exams as well as my career.however on the other side, if i go majoring in french, i would be a good english learner and a fine french learner, but not good enough to be brilliant in both languages.not enough to draw people's attention when i need them to be.crap.i've spent my life living in such situation--of course i know a lot about a lot of things, but i've never, ever, been expert in anything,not even in computer games--i've suffered a lot from this.really.it sucks.you know, in real life im kinda like the people that look radiant from the outside. they seem to know and are good at everything.however deep down i know that im actually not good at anything-just seemingly good.i've been confused and wondering whatever on earth is the true passion for me.the answer still didnt come to me. but im tired trying new things and stay being ordinary. i must focus on one certain thing for greater achievement.and i've got the strongest basis in english among all my tricks. focusing my next 4 years on english would turn out to be better then on french, which is totally new for me, i assume. im still wondering right now.but ihope that when i get out of college the other day, i could say it out, fair and square, that i am an expert in english, not an ordinary language learner anyway. [emoji]next part