Random Thoughts I woke up early this morning, around 5 am or before. Several thoughts went through my mind, mainly financially, like how much of the loan I lent out will never come back to me. Well there's a lot. I thought it was the reason for the early morning. But it turns out not till just now. It’s the infinite loneliness. Suddenly sadness claws my heart after thinking through why my parents keep pushing me to get married. They must have felt time is chasing them. And how are they going to let worries go away before seeing me starting my own family and having somebody love and support their son? Imaging them worrying about me day and night, imaging the sand in their hourglass going down day by day, imaging myself living with all loneliness in the time my parents gone can seriously rip my heart and wet my eyes. It’s very possible I might get killed by loneliness one day if I choose to live a life as it is. Why am I being so sensitive? Is the man’s menstruation working on me? Shall I be going back and thinking how to get my money back? Well I need to finish work quickly and leave to gym to let go some negative feelings, and at end of the day, call home, to tell how I miss my family 2000 KM away from me.