I'm not good at English but I'm trying to write something what i feel right now

When I was young I was screaming of with joy and wanted everybody on earth  to heard how much happy I was. But now I'm shouting of with pain, the pain of losing my father and my dearest brother in an car accident. The only men who were take took care of me and didn't they don't like to see me unhappy. My bro who had a handsome white handsome face it was like an angel on earth. I remember when he took me to the amusement park and made fun making jok of me when I wear wore  the a black dress. He said  "Lil sister, live your life, don't act above older than your age. He was always smiling, always caring.

Ohh father, I missed you. I just remember how I was hiding under your long (bishet). I remember when you were hiding me under it in winter. under it You  were afraid that I would get got wet and the funny thing was you knew how much I love sweets and you took me to the candy shop and you were smiling because my happiness is was yours as well. Ohhh I can't stop crying.......... I just find it was and still really hard when I brought you that last cup of tea and watched you fall  out down of your bed. It was hard when you were in hospital and you didn't couldn't remember me ....... I hope God will hear my prayer listen to pray to see you in heaven.

I'm not good at English but I'm trying to write something that i feel right now

When I was young I was filled with joy and wanted everybody on earth to know how happy I was. But now I'm screaming with pain--the pain of losing my father and my dearest brother in an car accident. They were only men who took care of me they didn't like to see me unhappy. My bro, who had a handsome, white face, was like an angel on Earth. I remember when he took me to the amusement park and was making fun of me when I wore a black dress and he said "lil sister live your life don't act older than your age". He was always smiling and caring.

Ohh father I miss you. I just remember how I was hiding under your coat (bishet). I remember when you were hiding me underneath during winter and you were afraid that I would get wet. And it's funny because you know how much I love sweets so you took me to the candy shop and you were smiling because my happiness was yours as well. Ohhh I can't stop crying.......... It was really hard when I brought you the last cup of tea and watched fall out of your bed. It was hard when you were in thehospital and you couldn't remember me ....... I hope God will listen to my prayers to see you in heaven