The past days The past days when I was feel safe.didn't understand the meaning of trechary I was clear.I didn't understand the meaning of cheating .didn't understand there are coward people.people stap your back and in your face give you smile .even money was for me some papers.but now for money human kill and another steal.people for money become mad like they are in race and who will be first will win .I wish back to my old bed when I put my head on pillow I sleep immediatly.didn't have any trouble.I was watch cartoon and feel peace.now sleep is escaping from thinking and pain.my heart was white soft without scratches.now it's become dark,injure ,strange and I don't know it. I look in mirror don't understand what happen.human deformed wearing smiling mask.when I grow my sins gorw I say I won't do sin I do more and more.every year part from life deformed face appear and my enemies increase.I stop feeling ,my heart become rock.I stop laugh from my heart.the value of be clear went.when people grow they wear above their faces face.and to live all dissemble and cheat.if you hate some one and you need him you don't appear your hate.when i was kid I was hug and kiss who I love and if I hate some one I didn't salut him.idea the inside be diffrence than out side wasn't in my dictionary.I still remember first time's pleasure of everything.when you grow the pleasure is killed.and trnasfer from pleasure to habit.I wish back to live one day from past days