Unrest Feelings

When asked about my goal in life, I feel puzzeled puzzled and fitful/nervous/uneasy unrest. When I was a student, I was taught the importance of setting a goal in life.
I clearly remembered that people those with a goal were more likely to have a prosperious life than those who have none. I ingored it for a long time. At this moment, I am still reluctantly to set a goal for myself. There are many reasons. Setting a goal pushes you forward, which means that you have to take put effort to the development. I know my personality. I hate pain the tiresome effort and hardly to pursue the goal with limitless unlimited effort. Besides this that, I don't do not like to face want to experience failure of the goal. I have strong tendency to give up loose heart (You are using Chinglish here, 失心, am I right? In a way, this is good because now you have the English equivalent.  This is the way to learn in this kind of environment) when the goal is not reached after painful much effort. In other words, I prefer having no success rather than having success that is after failure!

Welcome back.  Except for your spelling errors, the choice of words, your flow of writing is better now.  Your ideas are more cogent.  So who says hard work and effort do not not pay.