It's All My Fault

Today, she phoned me. She cried. She said " Ain, please help me. I can't face this situation anymore". She made me cry. She made me feel bad felt so worst as I can't help her, the only thing that I can do is just give an advice. But, did the advice help her? It didn't help her even a bit. I knew but what else could I I can do for her? If I could face that situation, I am willing as she is the best for me. She is the best friend I ever had. She never lied to me. She never talked badly behind me. She is the best listener forever.

But, I can't stop to blaming myself for what that had happened to her. She had made such a big mistakes in her life. She fell in love with the wrong guy. A guy that never cared about her feelings. A guy who always talked about others woman. A guy who didn't love her even for a second. But, she loved him very much. And they decided to marry, although they were only 17 years old. I didn't stop her. I couldn't as I knew that she loved him.

They married in November. The worst day in my life as I knew that guy wouldn't loves her. I cried a lot on that day. I should not let it happened. After only a year, that guy asked for a divorce. They already had a child. They can't divorce as it will affect the baby boy. Again, I can't do anything. She's gone crazy. She cries all day long. She didn't do anything.

Today, she told me that she would rather die than to face this situation. She can't face it anymore. That guy wants to marry another girl. She cried while said that she wanted to be happy. She wants to achieve all her dreams. I didn't say anything. It's all my fault. I should have stopped that guy from hurting my friend. But, the truth is, I did nothing.

She suffered because of the useless guy. She had to face this hard situation. She is only 18 years old but she can't be happy like the others teenagers. Then, she said to me that she wanted to forget that guy. She wants to take care of her child and continue her studies. Again, I said nothing. I didn't phone her. It doesn't mean that I don't love her but, I can't. I can't stop my tears when I heard her voice. I know she suffered a lot.

But, I hope she can hear me. " Friend, although I didn't phone you and ask about for your condition, it doesn't mean that I don't loves you. I do loves you so much. I just can't hear your voice. As it shows that you have given up to fight. If I could repeat this again, I do want to stop that guy from hurting you. I do loved you so much, friend".

I got tired during this; too many mistakes. Nothing you could do. I told my best friend not to marry a woman and I didn't go to the wedding. We spoke two years later after the divorce.