Dairy#1 It's 4/8/2019 today,I started smoking recently,about 2weeks ago.Knowing that I was not able to continue my graduate education this year,I felt a little bit frustrated.I used to be the lucky one in past 21years but it seemed that I've already run out all my fortune by now.After gradution ceremony in June I will officially become an individual in society and I have NO preparation for that.suffering mental illness makes me inanimate although I was born to be a optimistic person. Need someone to talk,or no one.have a good day you all,love you.