What can I do I just want to live freely without any worry. However, it is really hard. If I do not study hard, I could not work for a big company which can give me money a lot. Consequently, I would be obssessed with money. Although not getting in a big company doesn't mean that I couldn't get lots of money, I would feel comfortable with my life at least if I'm a part of the company. My mother always say that you should study enthusiastically and get a job in a big company. I understand her thought. But.. it sounds.. really bad. I know that money is really important in life. I can eat foods, wear clothes and enjoy my hobbies such as baking (ingredients are somewhat expensive) thanks to money that my father has earned. Additionally, I love buying something. I want to get much money. I sometimes envy my friends who go study abroad and learn languages in the field. I think that I do less effort than them but.. I can't know whether I'm jealous of their money,or enthusiasm. I guess both, maybe. I feel that, my language skills don't get better even I do my best. But my friends keep on winning even now. So.. I don't know what to do.. I am not be able to be certain about my ability.

yesterday class Yesterday, I took a class. (English) We talked about many things like Itaewon, drunk and inventions. Foreigners usually don't understand my English as I use Korean's accent when I speak in English. But, my English teacher Jasmin can. It's because she is learning Korean and taught(have taught? had taught? she doesn't teach now but italki)Korean student in school. Anyway, listening to English is so difficult to me. (There were many times I didn't understand teacher said / Is it right sentence?) I don't(didn't?) sometimes understand what teacher say(said?). In class, Jasmin said that Itaewon at night is so dangerous not like other cities in Korea.

I'm confused. I just wanted to experience different cultures and languages. So, I decided to go France for working holidays. But now.. it confuses me. I don't know why I made such a decision. Why should be France?? I don't know really. In Korea, students must be good at English. And they must have a English grade which is certified like TOEIC, TOEFL. As you can see, I'm weak in English. That's why it is better for me to go Britain than France. That truth worries(is worrying??) me terribly and I'm under a lot of stress. :< 전 단지 다른 문화와 언어를 경험하고 싶었습니다. 그래서 전 프랑스에 워킹홀리데이로 가려고 결정했죠. 하지만 지금은 그 결정이 절 혼란스럽게 하네요. 저도 제가 왜 그런 결정을 했는 지 모르겠습니다. 왜 프랑스일까요? 저도 정말 모르겠네요. 한국에서는 학생들이 반드시 영어를 잘해야 해요. 그리고 한국 학생들은 토익이나 토플 같은 공인된 영어 성적이 있어야 하죠. 보시다시피, 전 영어에 약합니다 ㅋ.. 그게 프랑스보다 영국으로 가는 게 나은 이유고요. 그 사실이 절 너무 걱정하게 만들고 그 덕에 굉장히 스트레스를 받고 있습니다. (This note was first written by English and I translated it into Korean. So this Korean could be somewhat felt strange.)

~.~ ~.~ ~.~ I'm very surprised that much more people want to learn Korean than I think ^0^ That may be why Korea is being more famous than before.

I want to study English. Et je veux etudier Francais. I'm Korean. I am studying English and French by myself. But it'd be better to be taught by native. So I start italki. Je suis coreenne. Je veux parler francais.