just be yourself I've heard a song named numb sang by LinkinPark.and what impressed me most was one sentence of lyrics ,"all i want to do,it's be more like me and less like you".exactly,i was touched by this spirit at that moment.i know it's just a song,a kind of artistic performance,but somehow it gives me so much courage to challenge the reality.i want to do what i like,and i feel mad if something get stuck and i have no capacity to resist it.so when this sort of situations occur,i put it out at the beginning. in my mind, work is life and life contains work,why should i have to do a unpleasant job for working to live a unhappy life? because i have no choices? i have to do it ? or i have to support household? no,no,no~i have votes for what kind of life to live,there are many options,and i have myfamily to help me out,they are the best people for me in the world,i highly appreciate it.when i don't like the first job completely which i signed at college before graduated from it, it's really tough for a fresh man as me to go through.i was so frustrated and depressed,i was forced to choose,stay or leave. i was so scared of facing the society by myself alone.but here i didn't see any hope or any help for my long-term career, especially the treatment was disgusting ,it can't be acceptable at all. finally i made a choice, left here and try chance.then i traveled to many places for seeking a job,drafting for a long time. after i settled down.i was thinking, what made me so crazy to leave there and search for work under so much pressure.it was the spirit of the song which gave me so much confidence and courage.I'm not joking. it's really happened to me,i believe it , so i follow the guide of heart , the arrangement of fate. i try my best to persue the dream,never be hesitated this time.and at the end of long journey , i arrived at the destination of my dream. don't be numb, be aware of what you're doing, what you want to do,don't forget the original dream,try hard to hold on a moment as possible as you can, remember the man you want to be, the life you want tolive, the family you want to return. if you feel lost, it's your time to developyous potential talent, figure it out and have a clear attitude and plan to life. you dig more , you gain more. it's not labor work but a method to get the power inside your heart.

the first day of my work Actually it is the first day of my work yesterday,before it.all the work i was doing is studying .it contains many kinds of knowledge,like knowledge of products,self-management,financial operation etc.but happy time is alwaysshort,the training came to an end before i realising it,and i think most of my friends in the same class have left for their working around china now,best wishes,wish you good luck,my friend.BTW,why i can't fall asleep~maybe i have run out of my sleep in my first day of working~ i really have no idea how to make friends in a office as a fresh man,but i have to face it by myself.specifically speaking,i need to know everyone's Chinese name and English name in the overseas sales third area office .how come i have a bad memory.it's really hard for me to remember people's name,you know,something is so easy to forget ,and it makes me feel ashamed of asking somebody's name again.i think if i were her,i also feel not respectful.um…why there is a "her",because most of them are cute and sweet girls.i can remember males'names by talking more with them.this is the first task to remember everyone's name,its really funny when i came to them and asked,"hello.my name is xiaoWei,I'm new comer here,may i have your name".i askedfor their names and also"sold" myselfone by one.and many of them i knewbefore,i ignored it .because i thought there is no need to introduce myself to them once again~it's my fault ,i think.i really made a mistake,how can i do that,it's hurtful.noting can change now,what does it matter of regrets.but i should do more to respect other people in the next working time,then i can get well with others.as a fresh man,i need to learn as much as possible from these experienced colleagues. lol~i finally feel tired now,it's a nice time for dreaming .so go to bed.oh yeah~tomorrow is saturday,have a good weekend.girls and boys.you don't have to get up early,try to have a enough sleep and hold on a long time anyway you like~goodnight~