This is interesting to me. I may help you. I guess you feels difficult to get it here. - 光をかすかに感じてる I think this is similar with a Japanese idiom. - 光明を見出す. This means that one finds out a leading light that can guide us to a good future from such a dark situation that everyone can't look ahead with hope. You can look up this idiom in any dictionary. And next is the first half of it. - すべてを僕は敵にまわしても The anatomy of this phrase is like this. - すべてを、僕は、敵にまわしても which is divided into these two meaning groups. 僕は〜したとしても すべてを敵にまわす Here, you can get the whole meaning as like this in English. - If I made an enemy of all (of what here?) , I feel I can find out a leading light ... What do you think? Edited: かすかな was dropped in the English sentence. I guess he takes it positive here and he feels he can find out a leading light even if it is faint and difficult to see. The translation will be alike to it too.