When you want something explained try and put " or ' around what you what explained because the 'I' is capital and just merges the sentences. Since we don't know how advanced your English is, it's confusing! ^_^ Anyway, I think from how I understand it that it means: 1) I need something to divert my attention 2) So I can carry on with life Basically saying they want something to get their mind off of the troubles so they can live life. Anyone else know what else it could be? That's my shot.