I am a person with no spirit. I often try to stop myself from acting on bad habits. Yet I do the same things again and again - which I don't want to do. If I were a person with spirit and confidence in myself. [today I would rather try to be a person of what I wanted to be.] - Not sure what this sentence means Even though my desire doesn't come true. Later I will be satisfied with the little efforts of my hard work. I could tell myself that I have done something great in my life whether I achieve it or not. Perhaps once the sentence above is clarified I will understand the overall meaning and can fix it better.