Cheers Here gradually became somewhere that I'm murmuring on.... Found that I always jumped in here after I got something through and recorded the disorganised memories into documentary, which revealed how much comfortability I see here as my outlet and....home. Started to pick here up before I officially became a Chinese resident and then incredibly I'm still over here and amazed at my dreams in being in China. Then I turned 29 and on counting down to my 30 in several months. Honestly I have never felt so anxious ever since I stepped into this age. When the first number of your age is going to become bigger, it usually brings up the issues of wrapping up the past 10 years. What you did and what you didn't do yet. With a bit of regrets, we cannot be back in time so we just keep walking ahead. Soon after the anxieties would be gone after you really turn into the next level of age. How many goals I'm still in the middle of dreaming of with 0% progress yet. How many cravings I'm still working on them but still haven't made them happen because of just no lucks yet. How many in the middle and make myself feel the right ways. How many new aspirations that are going to make me stronger and feel braver whenever I just think them about. I do neither just shrug at where I am at nor just follow the given flows. I'd rather move myself up to the level I crave. Cheers cheers cheers. :)