My anxiety disorder I'm really ashamed, it's so difficult for me speak in english. I can write fairly good. But, I'm not good when I speak in english. I can't be so fluent. Sometimes, it bothers me that people laugh of me. I really feels me ridiculous. And it's because nobody understand my problems. Sometimes, I simply think I can't tell my problem to nobody. It's because nobody cares me. It's so hard for me when you have so many problems with your language, well, it's not only with that. I really don't know, I'm just think I put all my efforts, in to try to speak a language, and in everything that I do. But it keeping being difficult for me. It is rather about me, sometimes I feel so guilty, sometimes I don't know how to continue with my life. Anxiety, for me, it's you don't know what will happen the next day. Sometimes, I think my life against the clock. I only got a little bit of time. My life is so short, and I haven't so long to waste it. I need find my happiness as soon as possible. It's so sad, because I feel everything going so fast. I can't anymore with nothing, I feel I have a lot of tension in my body. And that's true, the results that I get in all my objectives. It's so difficult and ashamed for me, try to be a better person, and to feel that I can't achieve it. I have a lot of scared all the time, about to meet my challenges. Also, I've scared to be a bad person to everyone else. It's somerthing that afraid me, the fact to be make mistakes. So, each day, is about to survive. They're plans oneself takes on the moment, everything is built on the fly. So, I simply want to conclude, saying anyway, I could learn so many from my anxiety disorder. I still haven't finish to find my way (I like the word "way") and to understand to accept myself. Also, I learned is not bad to cry or feel angry with somebody. And it helps you, it's a way of you can face your problems and carry on. Partly, you have to feel and to be sincere with yoursef. When you feel like you feel, it's because there's a message for you. We can't decide how we want to feel us. If we think that we do it, the only thing that happens us is you generate more tension. Something to add is that when I was a little girl I had social phobia.