Febrary 13

Hi to whomever is reading this.
I am Adan but I dont like my name so please call me Ayan.
First of all I want to say I am not good at English so I hope nobody criticizes me about it.
The reason why I am doing this, is because I really want to improve my English I hope one day I can
speak naturally like a native speaker. I have been watching videos about English but I have not practiced.
Today I decided write a diary. It sounds a little feminine but I think its a great way to start to practice English.
However, you know today it's Saturday which means I have not work, I like it that but I dont like the part of being alone in my flat.
It is about 2 years since I lost my girlfriend and its unbelievable to me that I miss her so long.
Well, in fact I just miss her on weekends hehehe but it's hard because I cannot concentrate on important things like programming, doing my chores, etc.
I really want to get over that relationship but I can't. I think the reason is because I am literally alone.
In Mexico we have a phrase which is "UN CLAVO SACA OTRO CLAVO", it means when you are in love with someone who doesn't like you, you can get over that by being with another person who you not exactly like, ha ha.
I really wish it would be easy to get a girlfriend, well, in fact to get a girlfriend whom you like.
Because in my case, I have some options to be with but I don't like them, I know it sounds a little selfish but you have to put them in my shoes, You can't be with someone who you doesn't like it.
To conclude this first writting I will write some words that I learned today:
thorough e.g., your homework is thorough
through e.g., through thick and thin
thought e.g., I thought we would never say good bye :(
though e.g., Today was a horrible day though I am still alive
those are very difficult words for me. Shit!!!