Me and my thoughts I usually feel sad at night. When the night comes, i am alone and all the memories come back. I remember not only the good things but also the bad experience. I get lost in both of them and hard to find the way out. I have some friends who i can share my thoughts, i can ask for advices but deep down inside of me, i can't share with them my feelings. And to me, an emotional girl who lives mostly on her emotions, always crave for a true understanding. I used to be a oversensitive girl who is super transparent and fragile, even just a word can kill me toughly. But it seems like the more i grow up, the less sensitive i am, i try to get used to the obvious things happen daily, or frankly, i accept it as an obvious event which i cannot change any concepts of that perspective. When i accept it, i feel more released as if i am free from the handcuffs and not stuck in the mess of my head-end thoughts. Gradually, i think i have changed much since i was 18. Not only my appearance but also my perspectives have changed. I see everything through the neutral vision, not one-sided opinion, i try to look at both good and bad sides of things and optimistically prone to positive aspects. I forgive myself more and encourage myself much, i was so discipline with myself that sometimes i forced myself to the risky ways which led to miserable results, and i never want them to happen one more time. Whenever i face with myself, i feel much more comfortable, as you know, all the day long, when you have to meet, communicate with others, some of the moments you wear masks which cover effectively the real you inside. But when you face with the real you, no masks or veils are used, you are naked under the light of innocent you, you dare to tell the truth, you do not pretend to be anyone else in this big world, you see the good points and limitations of yourself. And after these "self- mirrored " you feel much better, lighter and more optimistic, you are eager to change your life, enjoy as much as possible as if you have only one day left to live and try to take use of every seconds of it. Honestly, sometimes i am over deep in mirroring myself that leads me to be an introvert who prefers to spend her time on her own and thinking-orientated.