My success in English this yearin

I can write this post in English and I think it is my great win. In mychildhood I dreamt that I would speak English. I tried, tried and tried to learn it alone, but all of my attempts were unsuccessful. In my second year of university ,I decided that I would never speak English , because learning it is expensive, late (unclear: see note below)and it takes a very long time to study it. I saw many unsuccesful attempts by others and was disillusioned. From time to time, I was ashamed. Many people who speak English like to think that they are superior and show off their superiority. It was strange and unpleasant for me.

And now I can show that I'm not ashamed more. I can do it. I can speak, write and read in English. Improvement of my skills are is just a question of time, but  my opportunities are not. May be this post seems like a boast, but I think it isn't. It's my little win and I am really enjoying it. And no one can trivialize (make it seem unimportant) my succes. But why do I feel blame like I am doing something bad by writing about this?

Note: late (unclear -do you mean you thought it was too late for you to learn a new language? or something else?

trivialize: to make something seem less important than it really is:

https://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/english/trivialize?fallbackFrom=british-grammar

Congratulations on all your hard work!!!!!

My success in English for 1 year

Always use capital E for English

I might say something to shame you into learning English, but you would say that you felt 'ashamed' because you could not learn

You are right to feel happy about your success