The difference between how people think of me and how I see myself. I have been studying abroad in New Zealand for over 6 years. When I came over here, I could not speak English at all and I vividly remember that I scored 3 out of 100 for my first accounting exam. It was very embarrassing and devastated my confidence of my English level. However, this experience also encouraged me to start focusing on improving my basic English in order to get to the level where I could learn something more with English. The time went past and now, I am graduating from university in New Zealand next week. I am proud of the effort I have put in to come to where I am now. I was also offered a paid work experience job from a company that I was working at as an intern and I have talked in front of many people as a successful international student this year. It may seem that my life has been going well but I personally disagree with this perception. Although, I am working full time before graduating from university I am not satisfied with what I am doing at work. I was studying marketing at university and I though I would love doing marketing. However, after I worked for this company doing marketing, my expectation and reality was so different. I could explain how I feel this difference a bit more but I will skip this part this time. Now, I am struggling to see where I am and how people think of me. I am not satisfied with where I am at all and I really want to improve myself and learn more things faster and quicker. After I worked for a company, I noticed that I should not wait for others to satisfy my learning incentive and I should make actions for myself. This is why I started creating my own business and I have been learning a lot from this. Thank you for taking your time to read my diary! I would love to learn more about English writing and start improving something that I am not good at.