I should have a confidence
She told me that I've already got skills because she could understand my English. ”Don't worry too much and let you have a confident about your abilities.” she said.
When I talked with her, I cried but it was not sadly drops. Actually, I'd been losing a confidence of my belief, skills and mind. So I couldn't imagine about my future, my life and anything anymore. However I can choose my life at the moment. I do not necessary feel pressure from anyone.

