When you have so many plans you don't know where to start from The title of this text could perfectly be the text itself. It's exactly the situation I find myself into. In this week I wrote in this site, in French, about a good experience I had during all the first semester of the year, studying for a test to a 'public job' - as well as the expression I wrote in French, I don't know if 'public job' fits the meaning here; it's working for an institution of your country, in my case, the judiciary. It was a good experience because I've learned things I could never imagine I would learn. I improved a lot by myself and I find it amazing. The moment I realized I got no more than 78 from a 100 questions test, I also realized that all the months studying was good, but not enough. It's not a bad score, but the concurrence probably scored more than that - 80 questions on average. Some people tell me got this, but I'm not optimistic and I have no reason to be. It's frustrating to have to throw away a good expectative. Therefore, the plan now it to keep studying for the next texts to come. It happens that I have a bunch of tests I want to apply for, and it will take another countless amount of time to study for them. I have no money to buy courses and I will have to embark in this mission alone again. It's no problem to do it alone, I proved myself I can, but humans need to feel in group sometimes somehow. Although I feel motivated to keep studying, something bothers me a lot. I'm 20, in the beginning of life, yet thoughts make me think I'm losing time on something I shouldn't. I'm 20, but this countless amount of time I need to study makes me think I'm letting life to pass by. To spend more time studying is no guarantee to achieve my goal. I want to apply for a 'public job' to have a stable life; I want to master French; I want to travel the world; I want to help people, but first getting the tools to do so; I want to write a novel and the list goes on. From where should I start? I'm 20, but in a while I'll be 25, 30, 35, 40, 50, 70... What a fast horse life is! A young person has so many plans that it's difficult to make all of them real. I'm not saying that old people have no plans, but they know somehow that clock is ticking and some things are too late to be done. Young people, on the other hand, think they have infinite time. Fools! Life is fast and the world doesn't follow our script. Those two facts scare me.