Thoughts about love

When I first arrived in came to Spain, I had no idea that didn't know love I would fall in love with someone so deeply.would hit me so strongly Unfortunately ( or maybe fortunately?), that was exactly what happened. As I generally do not have much  never had luck in  life I either have luck as in love... so much so that  I am now in a terrible situation again--one which I can't do anything about -- with him because both of us are living so far apart/of the "distance" between me and him... It hurts so much, especially when I see all the other "perfect" and "normal" girls, many who as normal as I am, being perfectly happy in their  involved in  beautiful and long-lasting relationships.  I just can't help it, but it literally makes me feel like I'm just a piece of crap... I hope I'll be loved one day...