Something is wrong

I lost a lot of things in 2016. I know that no matter how hard I try, some things cannot be brought back. I know that I can keep myself healthy through exercise, but  I cannot stop other lives passing away. Suddenly gone forever. I feel that a lot of things are too late to go back.The sudden loss caused me to become anxious (don't know what you mean by strange). I almost threw out all my high heels and makeup. I made myself busy. I'm starting to find or escape, exactness(I didn't understand this sentence). I lost my way in the process.   I'm sorry if I have bothered anyone. I want to apologize, but I don't know how to. Maybe just stopping is enough. Stop doing the wrong things and start doing the right things. 

 

Your article is quite difficult to understand, please let me know if I have misinterpreted anything.