My first love Recently my first love connected me .He wanted to connect with me.But I refused .He said he had one question trubled himself .That is if he had proposed me would I say yes.I told him no. Now we already got married with other person.So I think it is not right to connect.And I am very happy now.I love my husband and enjoy my life .I have found something that is valuable to do .He told me he missed me so much during these ten years .Even when he was almost died .I can feel he was so sad. But seems like I made him so sad and unfortunate .I feel so upset and moved .I was moved because he still looking for me so many years .But I am not the reason made his life very sad.I was a little bit angry .He said he will remember me forever .I think there is no result between us .We will not divorce . So I think that is meaningless .That is not my life . At the same time I was so excited .Because there is someone loved you so much .When I looked in a mirror .I think am I so beautiful that he loves me so much .Maybe he doesn 't love me .He just love the feel he didn 't get. Just as I like the feel he loves me .Actually we have never get along with each other as lover .But it was so deep in our heart .Next time I will talk about what had happened between us .