My zebra-ghost

My Zebra-Ghost

When I was a child, I used to enjoy happy moments completely, without a shadow of suspicion that I must pay some invisible price for this happiness.  With age, I began to notice that life is a zebra, and it is impossible to avoid its dark lines.  This feeling is looming in my mind like a ghost in moments of peace and joy.  In every instance the zebra demonstrates its permanence, but this is a solace as well.  In dark times, I hold on and wait for the dawn of the light line.

Now I have passed through half my life, I guess, so I hope I become wiser.  I will abandon my zebra ghost without regrets.  And I will be able to enjoy happy moments like a child, not because I don't know the sequences of life, but because of them I really know.  And it is okay.

My comments are mostly slight changes in style.  This is well written, and I commend you for your courage in posting something so personal.  There is good news.  God promises to work through all the lines of the zebra for our spiritual good, so we can have hope in the dark lines as well as in the light lines.  Thanks for posting this.  It's "food for thought" as we say.

"Мы знаем, что Бог все обращает во благо для тех, кто любит Его и кого Он призвал по Своему замыслу."

My zebra-ghost

My zebra-ghost

Poignant piece

Best, 

Rupert

My zebra-ghost

And every time the zebra demonstrates its permanence, but this is a solace as well – I am holding on and waiting for the dawn of the light line.

>  Just as I can see the permanence of these two colours on a zebra, I can also  find solace in it as well-- that life should not be seen in  black and white-- for I can just hold on and wait for the dawn of something brighter.

Now I have passed my way on a half, I guess. So I hope I become wiser - I will abandon my zebra-ghost without regrets. And I will be able to enjoy of happy moments like a child, not because I don’t know the sequences of life, but as a result – I really know. And it is oK :)

> Now I think I have passed the halfway point of this cycle of highs and lows. And when I come out of this cycle, I will banish this "zebra ghost" of mine from my mind forever and without any regrets. I hope to become wiser and be able to enjoy my happy moments, not like the child I was, but as an adult who has gone through the worst life has thrown at me . I really understand that now, and it is a good feeling :)