半只烟's notebook entry: Apr 29, 2011 Small when total feel grew up to succeed, is now 30, but empty! Everyday except work, is playing a game. Sometimes also thinking, their living what is? Still didn't get good answer! After graduation, changed line, had a long happy days, but fleeting! Time passed quickly, ten years, seemingly during that decade, I have never tried, are always on the fall, have yourself know, but can't change myself, maybe not the courage, perhaps really didn't have this ability. Sometimes see others succeed, their own inner really unwilling. Why am I so disappointing? Lifetime really quickly, think of ignorance, before really very ashamed! Sometimes chatting with friends, said to a line, actually are kidding themselves. Really satisfied? Really always happy? My mind is not think so. I think everyone won't stop with the status quo. People no greed no, have too much greed also not line. Very few somebody can truly contented mind is perpetual feast. A person, heart the feeling empty inside, perhaps too complicated, but feel empty, sometimes really regret it, read the book for so many years, but cannot write their own inner world. Ashamed! Ashamed!