I want to be myself I'm stuck in a situation of personality constructing for a long time. I'm an introvert girl, compared to all my outgoing and lively sisters and cousins, I'm not the obvious one in my family. I never thought that will be a problem for me even though I know being outgoing would be easier for me to adopt the social life. Because I don't really enjoy other people put their eyesight on me and I don't like to be the spotlight in a group. However, I'm good at observing other people's behavior and I like to listen what people are talking about if I was lively I couldn't do this. The reason why I want to change myself is because of my relatives, that's why I don't like to participate our family gathering. They always say some awkward words in front of me or my parents to judge my personality. I don't care what they say but I afraid my parents will reproach themselves because my earlier experience makes me unconfident. I have explained to them many times but sometimes I still can feel their guilty. So I try to make myself look lively in front of other one and pretend I like to social with everyone. But I feel I'm so fake and I don't even know who I am. I feel so tired to camouflage. Could I just be myself?