A Diary of a stupid day I didn't sleep well last night. I still couldn't fall asleep after a long time of lying on my bed quietly. And then, a strong feeling of anxiety and guilt invading my heart slowly. I began to feel annoyed, upset, and maybe, scared. Yeah, I became scared all of sudden. I feared of this void feeling, this kinda laziness in my nature, and the flowing time without an improvement of my study. I had so many things to learn ,so many things to do, but I even have not accomplished one of them yet. It seemed like that I had wasted, like my entire life ,however, I always feet all right about that. So I began to thrill with a hardly reminded sense of guilt and regret.. I had been staying here for more than two months, but I didn't even start writing my paper, and still knew nothing about math............ Whatever, I still have hope and I believe this all the time: Nothing's gonna be too late. So I waked up early this morning and went to the library. Despite I'm a lazy guy, I know exactly what I have to do. We don't always get what we want from our lives, but we can give ourselves an opportunity to chase it .